today has so far been the. worst. day. of. my. life. to date. i am too embarrassed to say why because i am too much of a failure to even exist but my face is stinging from all the crying and now there is no fluid left in my skull to keep my brain breathing.
as if to save me from the abyss that my life was to spiral into the bestival lineup made me hyperventilate on a pavement in public and also trip over my dog and cry a little bit more. a sign from the cosmic forces that i shall go to the ball as it's payday tomorrow thank you based god and then i got home and ripped a hole in my favourite tights and checked the date that i am supposed to start university if i get in (ew that sentence sounds so wrong and not applicable to my life) is the 1st of september and bestival is on the 5th-8th. obviously bestival comes before education/socialising with new people who will inevitably not want to be my friends always (the same thing happened clashing with college last year but who needs brains when you cry too much to keep them alive anyway).
in case you were wondering what i am wearing on my head it's a custom made intergalatic trinket that was made for me by some gypsy con artists at bestival last year and i wore it for the whole weekend even though it cut a bleeding hole in my head as the lady used pliers to attach it to the moldy rope it dangles from. that was also the same weekend that i saw stevie wonder dance on a piano stool in front of my very eyes. it's sad because even though he's blind he can probably see more to life than me. but stevie wonder is not a teenage girl. sigh.
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